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Dead HeartI long for your touch
I yearn for your kiss
I love you so much
even when you hiss
yelling and angry lost inside
killing me slowly
I want to hide
no tears for me
Why do I love you my heart screams
even when you just stab me harshly
you haunt me in my dreams
I hate you only partially
Let me go please I don't want this
I can be strong
not wanting your kiss
this can't last to long
and now I lye dead on the ground
you watch me with cold eyes
You hear no sound
No final goodbyes
Heart broken StephanoHe is gone
The words slipped from my mouth
For him I've grown fond
My heart weak and restrained
will I ever love again
He did not feel love for me
I have been killed
My soul hungry for his love
His soft lips I wanted them against mine
I unsheathed my sword
I will end this pain now
A gentle hand touches me
it is him he begs me not to do it
I have no choice
I have nothing to live for anymore
Until he kissed my lips
Stephano's Mission Chapter five: Bros vs Barrels?When I had peered inside I could not believe what I saw. The leader of the barrels and the bro both in human form where fighting about who should kidnap Pewdie?! I was confused and angry I growled at the others "Stay here..." I burst in slamming the door behind me so they wouldn't see the other's. Both parties stared at me when I yelled loudly "WHERE IS PEWDIE!? I KNOW YOU TOOK HIM!" there was hurt in my voice. The barrels leader stepped towards me "Do you have it?" I glared "Your not getting it barrels!" The bro stepped in "I have Pewdie in custody and we where making a deal!" The barrel suddenly pulled out a gun the deal is off! The Bro's claw slashed the gun and half. I brought out my sword. The Bro asked "What is it they want anyways Stephano?" He seemed almost friendly...ALMOST. The barrels quickly responded telling him my tragic secret. "Well you see we saved his life once as long as he gave us his heart which hold's the key to everything!! He did it to save Pewdie and has been a
Skully's Secret Chapter two: Gorgeous Guest.Stephano walked up to me and Gonzales "Allos Skully." He completely ignored his brother who looked hurt. I was going to do something about it "Why didn't you say hi to your brother." I gave him cold stare. "I'm Gonzales I did not see you there Allos." he smiled. Which made me feel better,somehow. Piggeh burst into the room "I'M PUMPED!!!!" He always was...Mr.Chair entering behind him and he soothed him. After Piggeh calmed down they ran over. "Where is Jennifer?" I asked, looking around. "I hear she was gonna go out for the day...she said she needed to change herself since everyone hates her..." Mr.Chair revealed."AND YOU JUST LET HER?!" Stephano asked obviously angry. "She is her own woman it was none of my business!" Mr.Chair defended when I cut in " Stephano! We have work to do! Gonzales." He glanced over I saw the hurt echoing in his golden eyes "Want to come join us?" I asked smiling at him. I saw the hurt slowly melt away as his warm voice slipped past his lips "I'd love to." He
Dark Chapter 11: Battle of the Lovers ((part 1))He narrowed his eyes at Stephano and then as if out of defiance he did something that shocked us both. But not in a good way because the next thing I felt was his warm slimy tongue exploring my mouth passionately. For a moment I found a great enough of strength to throw him off only to collapse to the floor. Stephano looked completely furious "You piece of shit I'll rip out your goddam throat!" he snarled lunging at Alem who seemed to be...smirking? He yanked out a dagger and fought my furious lover. I hadn't realized till now I had twisted my ankle so I just crawled across the ground watching them watch me in return. "Aradia!" They said simultaneously both sounding full of worry. Both came to my aid but would never settle their differences after what Alem had done. He had disrespected me, violated me, hurt me...but he didn't really seem to care. Stephano on the other hand just didn't want to lose me as a friend at the risk of becoming lovers. I understood now why he hadn't told me soo
Dark Chapter 12: The TruthWhen I awoke I expected to feel Alems cold and empty body under me but instead I was faced with ruffled blankets. Alems body wast there anymore and I just figured Stephano had taken him so I wouldn't be upset to leave him like that. I looked for him "Where is HE?!" I whispered the first part but the second was interrupted by his arms snaking around my waist startling me. His arms snaked up my chest resuming to my neck to turn my head. He made me face him. The next thug I felt were his warm lips against mine. We had kissed a few times before but this one was different. I could feel the urgency in this kiss the burning desire and passion in him and I. I let my hand gently take his head and pull it closer in a needy sort of way. He responded by laying me a bit better on the bed shifting so we were both comfortable. I then felt his warm tongue welcome itself into my mouth asking for a dance with mine which I accepted. The dance got faster and sometimes with it came small breathes and moans
Don't Judge.Don't Judge me because I'm Happy
And you can't be
Don't Judge me because I can love
And you can only Hate
Don't Judge me because of my past
It's what makes me. Me
Don't Judge me because I don't regret
Yet you regret everything
Don't Judge me because I can't hide my pain
And you can pretend to be Happy
Don't Judge me for the present
It's who I am and will be
Don't Judge me for being me.
The only person you can't be...
Ara (Ib fanfic) Chapter 1 : Like a Nightmare..."I DON'T EVEN WANT TO GO TO THE ART GALLERY!" I argued with my mom who retorted "Ara you are only sixteen you don't get to make decisions for two more years!" I growled and cursed under my breath gazing out the window at the scenery. The car was silent until we got to the art gallery. I had been thinking about when dad died and then that horrible woman he married was all I had left. I had no boyfriend, aunt, uncle, grandparents, or other relatives. She didn't even call me by my real name which was Aradia (pronounced: A-RAY-D-uh) she just calls me Ara. I don't mind it but she seems to hiss it like I'm some disgusting creature. Finally we where at the art galley. Guertena's art gallery anyways but I didn't care I just wanted to go home and punch my pillow like my therapist told me to. When we got into the art gallery and signed in I walked out. "Frick off mom! I'm gonna go look around by myself!" she seemed to snarl "Fine. But when you come back I hope you know how to treat your mother!"
Ara (Ib fanfic) Chapter 2: New FeelingsI smiled as we walked thinking about random things but mainly Garry. I wanted to talk to him. "Hey...uhm Garry?" He looked up sweetly "Yes Ara?" I loved the way he said my name but I had to keep my composure " How old are you? I'm sixteen going to be seventeen soon." I blushed a little. I have never felt like this before it felt odd and I wanted my therapist to help me. "Oh me I'm twenty five." I looked at him in shock as he chuckled "Ha ha I'm just kidding! I'm nineteen." I smiled "Good." The relief flooded me and it was clearly visible. Garry looked at me gently and smiling as he was about to say something on of the paintings tried to spit at him. He fell towards me and I caught him in my arms but I fell as well.
We chuckled as he leaned over top of me he had been trying to get up but he suddenly stopped and blushed "I'm sorry.." I looked at him "Don't be." I smiled at him making him feel better. He helped me up like a gentlemen. Afterwards he cursed at the painting and helped me by
Dear MoonNothing is worse
Than when you are new
The night is so vapid
Without that delicate light
Being cast upon us
But it's not so bad
At least, not anymore
For now i have someone
That reminds me of your allure
When you are absent from the sky
I long for your return
So maybe you'll return the favor
And remind me of her
Screamed her pain.I'm tired and I'm a basket case of pity.
Don't look at me.
Don't talk at me.
You can't see me.
I want to close my eyes and invade in my inner city.
Don't dare wake me.
Please hold onto me…
No… you can't see me.
Yes you do see me…
I'm so blind that I'm chaotic.
Wake me! Embrace me! Please!
Can you really see me?
I do want to go to bed.
I'm so weary…
Hold me please…
You can't see me…
Don't mock me…
Please help me…
I won't be able to speak of logic.
I am emotional.
I can't feel me.
I can't hear me.
Look at me…
Don't fret, and just hold me.
Please… even though… we can't see me.
Fear Stalks My HeartTheres a growing fear in my heart,
Like spinning spider spindrills on the hearth,
Never ending, never showing signs of stopping,
Am I gone?....
Am I dirt?
Or am I lost?
Take me in the pit of rage,
Drag me through the dirt today,
I was lost,
But never found,
Cut thy throat, and let me bleed,
Hatred flows, and sorrow seethes,
I am in a world unknown and unkind,
When will I succeed to find the world that lets me breathe,
The air was putrid,
Full of shit I must not need,
The evil people,
Things that they told me,
So I hope,
And I stand, though all alone,
And I clench my fist,
Bloody it may be,
Raise it high,
Let rage fly,
Just be me...
My Deceitful EyesMany claim that the eyes reflect what is true
That they are a medium for what's inside you
But they are not as steadfast as we want them to be
They bluff, they betray, and they've mastered deceit
For my eyes have lied, they have led me astray
They showed me a man who would never walk away
They only reflected what I had wanted to see
Then life proved that he wasn't who I thought him to be
Foolish Heart.I'm a fragile thing.
I'm far more delicate than your mother's finest vase filled with artificial flowers and love to the brim.
I can shatter with the tiniest mistreatment.
I try to hide away in the darkest labyrinths; it's to keep myself safe.
I fear being broken once again.
I've been down that jagged path, I don't want to do it again.
But then a light finds my safe place; Awe replaces fear.
The light isn't so bad, it's soothing even.
For months we do this tango of love and grace.
I thought I could finally be safe again in the arms of a total stranger, who transformed into my lover.
Some things I didn't understand about you, but I let them go.
Your light was dangerous, it blinds from the truth.
I found that out far too late.
I'd fallen and shattered, and awaited for you to pick up the pieces.
Finally I realized that you never would.
You're empty inside; never to be satisfied.
Not even the deepest love could fill the holes in your heart.
I was a fool to fall and now I'm living with the
Beat Me Til I See HellRepeating, repeating, of a carnival beating,
There is no remorse, only laughter and cheating,
I've always loved all the people I've hated,
And always watching your heart become so berated,
Your filthy gods will spit in your throat,
Beg for forgiveness, so forgive you I won't,
Strangling, dangling,and asking for mercy,
Just beat me, just beat me, so that I may feel,
Reality is wrong, so show me what is for real,
Just beat me, and reap me,
Until I see hell..
Theres a, pretty little flower with your name on it,
In bloom and it's full of shit,
Forcefield is blocking,
And no one will stop me,
Before I push them all away...
Someone stop me,
Just drop me,
Theres a little, little, crack inside the window,
And it's my soul caught in a frame,
Something made me feel so black, this heart feels so gray,
Please just beat me, someone keep me,
Someone hate me, someone take me,
Just beat me,
Until I see hell...
You won't leave me alone,
Unless I leave you first, but I can't turn my back while
Why do you haunt me?Why does your memory haunt me so?
Causing me to relive that painful time.
That first moment when we weren't together.
It's like you taunt me at the best possible instances.
Bringing my "all time low" ever lower.
When my friends laugh and are having fun.
I am trying with all my might to hide my violent shutters,
and to steady my quivering lip as I can barely hold back the tears.
Why? Why do you want to cause me such pain?
I don't want to remember.
It's done and over.
Somehow I see you among a sea of faces.
I can pick out your voice in a babble of billions.
Your scent somehow appears and I can't rid my nose of it.
I know you aren't there but why does it seem like you are?
My friends don't realize the pain you put me through.
I'm used to wearing a mask.
But someday soon it's going to fall off.
Your memories will expose me for who I am.
Miserable, depressed, pathetic.
I thought I could leave past memories in the past.
But I was never really good at anything.
Why would I think I could
Suicidal Intentions of a Lone WolfEveryday I sew my heart shut,
Everyday I brew the blackened blood,
Everyday I'm left alone,
Is another damned day where I kill my soul,
Just another damned day in this lonely world...
I left and no one turned their heads,
I left and no one shed,
No not one tear not one fear that I'd never return,
Sitting in my chair, as I wish the world would burn,
Why didn't anyone wish to see?
Wish to see the end of me,
The end of me is just beginning as I drift,
Drift, drift drifting down the meadow of misery,
It's filled with tears and scars and hatred,
It's filled with molten tar that fills my veins as I take it out on all,
Take it out on all within my gaze!
Just another god damned lonely day,
It's just another day with myself,
It's just another lonely day by myself,
I hate myself...
Lost MemoriesLost Memories:
What happens to those memories lost long ago?
Do they burst into flames or turn into snow?
Do they manifest into memories for others untold,
Or do they come about as flowers with petals that unfold.
What happens to all of those memories that have been forgotten?
Did they slip into a child's dream,
Or a best friend's nightmare?
Have they been hibernating like bears,
Or falling asleep?
Or are they still sitting in the back of our minds waiting to get back on their feet...
Crimson HeartI will be strong
I don't know how long
your heart an empty pit
I would know I tried to take it
but alas there was no heart
and it is time for us to part
If love is a war then so be it
the fire in my eyes now violent
I pierce you with the shattered remains harshly
killing you only slowly but only partially
I will let you suffer like I
but I know today is the day you die
yet kill you I must
our arguments full of obsession and lust
well I'm done and your on your own
I will leave you too die all alone
goodbye and goodnight
never shall I see you again in my sight
For you won't break this
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